I'm in love

I am in love with Ashley.

Kind of funny

I've been here before. I lived her for a long time.

Its like things are back to normal.

My family has been in bed for hours and I'm awake on the PC listening to music, writing poems, and reading comics. I'm smitten by a lady and haven't found the words to tell her how much she means to me. I'm in school, I'm broke. I had a fight with my Dad.

But this time it really is different. I don't want to get over the girl this time. I don't mind being broke so much. I know that I'm finally in the right class. And I don't have anger for my Dad, I have sorrow. And I'm not giving into hate and temptation like I used to.

This time I'm an adult. This time I'm putting all my hopes in Christ. Thanks to Him I can hurt without being broken. I can love without being lost. Thank you God.

This time

This time I won't hide.
This time I won't accept numbness.
This time I won't back down.
This time I won't give up.

This time I will love.
This time I will hold on.
This time I will be honest with myself.
This time I will be brave.